Raking the Rain

When I lie awake at four in the morning, I am always amazed at the clarity that comes to me. This morning, I even stayed there for an extra twenty minutes, just enjoying my own little therapy session. I really should charge myself for this.

Today I had a break through, even before the sun broke through. I am not a mover and a shaker. Really, I’m not. I’m more of a “talk about it and hope it will happen” kind of gal.

I asked God to help me sell more How I Earned My Wrinkles books. I may have offered Him a commission.

The kicker is that if a friend needed help, I’d be her first in line. I’d encourage her to get some book signings scheduled. I’d also suggest promotions. I’d find a list of local book stores and we’d visit them, and then go to lunch. I am a great cheerleader, just not for myself.

Right now I am talking about it and hoping my books will be boosted by God. I’m sure He’s wondering what I plan to do on my part. Well, I am thinking quite a bit. Doesn’t that count?

I have actually envisioned myself, books in hand, at the book store’s counter. Naturally they want to sell How I Earned My Wrinkles…Musings on Marriage, Motherhood and Menopause. I’ve done this before…No Excuses. (That was God talking.)

This morning God told me that I was raking the rain. I was confused. He explained that, “If you are only making motions in your mind, it’s like raking the rain. It can’t be done. It’s useless. Anne, you need to do something different,” He said firmly, but nicely. “You need action. Stop snarling and have some faith, girlfriend.” He calls me that when He knows I don’t like what He’s saying. It does make me smile.

So today needs to be a day of action, outside of my mind. I am very busy in my mind, so this might actually be a nice change. Where did I hide my big girl panties?

I’ll pray to St Anthony to find them. How’s that for a stall tactic? I can blame my procrastination on St Anthony.

God is shaking his head at this thought. I may have to increase his commission.