I almost missed the inch-and-a-half baby dragonfly in the newly planted sod. I was walking our cockapoo, Miss Mattie, near the lagoon when a small flutter caught my attention. It was so delicate that it blended in with the blades of newly planted sod. When I blinked, I had to refocus to find it again. I peeked closer at the beautiful blue in her wings. I’d never seen one this petite. What a beautiful way to begin my day.
I’m a believer in messages from Heaven. I’ve had two murky two weeks. I’m usually upbeat, but two events sank me. Not only did I develop a dry socket from a molar extraction, but I got depressing news on a never-ending journey to find services for my mentally ill son. Between the two, my positive mojo got sucked right out of me.
This little blue dragonfly brought me a message. I immediately researched the symbolism of blue dragonflies. One source, Fauna Facts, tells me that a dragonfly is a reminder of spiritual transformation. No matter what one has gone through in life, or is going through now, one has the opportunity for renewal, which will lead to greater spiritual growth.
Another states it is a symbol of trust, faith, and letting go. My trust, faith, and letting go all got up and went these past few weeks. It’s exhausting to push through the never-ending channels seeking help. My son has slipped through every crack in the system. Each one showed promise until they didn’t.
You’d think I’d learn to be patient and not get my hopes so high. Well, I haven’t learned that yet. I just crash after each crack that swallows up our hope. I am tired of being disheartened. I don’t recognize myself. I am not a wallower. Well, maybe I was the past fourteen days.
And then this little blue creature arrived to give me a message. Isn’t it funny how this happens? She was so tiny, yet I noticed her. Yes, she is a female. I named her Belle. I feel like my spirit has shrunk to the size of my new friend Belle. I am weary.
It was no mistake that I came across Belle this morning. Within minutes, I felt like an angel had tapped on my shoulder. I was reminded that I am never alone. I will get through the murky times. Soon I won’t be cranky and wallow in my misery anymore. It will pass.
I am also hiring Belle to visit me daily and be my therapist. Between the angel tap on my shoulder and therapy, I will be my new rejuvenated self very soon.